My Past...

>confuses me
>has been a path to who I am
>had/has a purpose
>is something I need to dwell on less
>isn't so bad

Things will be good when...

Life is... good. I'm stoked for where things are going, but lately I feel like I've been looking forward too much and not living in the moment enough. Sometimes I feel like I've checked out and I'm just coasting until June when I can head to the Dominican. But I have been living that way for a long time. I constantly have these goals that I say, "life will be good when..." Right now, my thought is "life will be good when I can head down to the DR." But I'm tired of just waiting and coasting. By doing that I miss out on a lot of satisfaction that could be found along the way. So, I'm going to work on living in the moment and not focusing on the past or future. Not a small order, but I've gotta give it a shot.

The past...

So this song not only made me laugh, but also confirmed the thoughts that I had about the past. It's always easier to reflect on the past because clearly, I made it out of that ok. Sure, there might have been some things that could have been done better, but I made it. What makes me laugh is that sometimes it seems like the present is just going on forever and ever, but soon, it will be the past too. I think of how junior high and high school, and even a little college, seem like a blur to me now, but at the time it seemed like it might kill me. HA! So all I can do is look in hope to the future, without worry, and know that I'm not in control, and that's better than just ok.
So, here's the lyrics from Chris Rice's Song "8th Grade" that made me laugh a little.
Why does the past always seem safer?
Maybe because at least we know me made it
And why do we worry about the future?
When every day will come just the way the Lord ordained it
You can believe it, yeah, just like the 8th grade

And here's some prayer requests too :)
~Carlos, a family friend, who had a massive stroke on Monday. He's doing a little better, but still has a long road ahead of him
~That I don't worry about the future or focus on the past, but just do the best I can with every day that faces me
~That I won't miss Haines too much and start to resent Seattle a little bit again