Why am I here?

So, I decided that today I was going to take the day and just spend some QT with the Jeez. Lately I have been reading this book called "Changes that Heal." Cheesy title, yes, but it's still a good book. Today what I read was about taking responsibility for myself. I have been blaming the way things have gone recently for me on anyone but me. "Other people have been telling me to stay away from Haines." "Other people have told me what I should do." But I have a choice in it. I don't necessarily have to listen to what they are telling me.
So what I'm doing now, I'm doing for me. I'm living in Seattle because if I was in Haines I would be too tempted to get close to relationships that tell me what I should be doing. I'm living with my parents, not because I can't make it on my own, but because I will likely never have as good of a chance to save up money like this. I'm working at a job that I don't love because I am trying to make it a happier place to be and because I'm learning a lot about myself by being there... for example, I have no desire to have a desk job. I'm going to do something out there this summer because it wouldn't be good for me to be in Haines and because I can. I want to make the most of this time of my life when nothing is holding me back. So I'm gonna take a roadtrip to the Ben and Jerry's factory. I'm gonna go see Graceland and the world's biggest ball of yarn. I'm going to soak my feet in the Pacific Ocean, the Caribbean, the Atlantic Ocean, the Great Lakes, and a variety of bodies of water between all those.
For the next couple months, my life will have a bit of a routine to it. Work 35-40 hours a week, chill on the weekends, hang out with friends. But after that, your guess is as good as mine. Why the heck not?
I'm gonna steal the words of Jewel's new song... For a while "I'm gonna love myself / More than anyone else / Believe in me / Even if someone can't see / The stronger woman in me / I'm gonna be my own best friend / Stick with me till the end / Won't lose myself again / never, no / Cause theres a stronger woman / a stronger woman in me"
And for the record, some day I'm going to borrow lyrics from songs that Annie Parsons writes. Cuz someday, they're going to be all over the radio.